i just want to blog.
sick and tired of studying for hours. just giving back my migraine. fuck.

so monday, i just don't know what happening with us this days. i felt so heart ache.
i just kept my tears.
when vicky just asking why and asking me infront of shahfiq and ryan.
i just burst down. and annis and ira came and we go somewhere private and i just tell them, and it really hard to talk to someone when u are crying. when i talked to them, terseduh-seduh seh. now everything is back to normal. alhamdulillah. just talk thing out. thanks alot annis and ira.
then tuesday, annis told me that she cry yesterday about her relationship. pity her.

so Wednesday, arie, nina, feerdaus, nazih, asri and i went to watch "congkak" at downtown.
the show is not scary but the sound effect make the movie scary. mahal babe sound effect dier. i sit between arie and feerdaus. feerdaus is super cute lah. he like cover his face all the way, takot ke pe. hehe. asri cover his ear all the way too because of the sound effect. the sound effect make us shock only. lerr.. after watching the movie it was 2pm, still early. so lepak until 6. lame seh tak lepak. best pulak.

so today, thursday after school went to HSA to accompany Annis to pay fine. nazih, arie and feerdaus also followed. then we went to center point to visit marks and Spencer to interview. but no vacancy. so sad lah. just full time at vivo city. went to the heeren, nazih wanted to buy cd at hmv, then we off to PARAGON. the place change alot. went to marks and spencer and saw KAK AISHA. we hug for so long lah. i really miss her. but just too bad for me. hope they are doing well.

and yea, searching for a job at Giordano next thursday i think.

and tuesday, nadhirah my darling bestfriend and i chat at the phone. just for a few minutes. really miss her so much. keep in touch yea. love ya.

3 DAYS LEFT TILL EXAMINATION. hope i do my best.
i study really hard just to pass.

hope our relationships will not break into peaces. all we been together, very happy all this years.
ya allah kasih lah hati mereka yang ku amat cintai ini, kasih lah hati nye tidak ade dendam satu sama lain, bermusuh dan macam2 lagi. bukak lah hati mereka untuk berbaik. aku sayang sangat dengan mereka.

p.s. i love u, ashari.

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i know i didn't blog for awhile. busy with studies.

so i going to talk about last week p.e lesson. on Thursday, at our school stadium it started to rain. so we went to indoor sport stadium.. i really like this week p.e because this is the day the boys could not payed soccer. wuahaha. so we wanted to play floorball.

i was in surizan group,with fify, joshua, ken, boon keong. so we have 6 people.
and the other group is ashari group, with nina, ira, shahfiq, feerdaus, ridwanand paul. they have 7 people.
the match was super hilarious, enjoying and definitely tiring.
we didn't know how to play yet play anyhow.
when the ball went to the right, all of us will chase the ball to the right.
when the ball went to the left, all of us will chase the ball to the left.

the only people stay put, is ira, ashari, ridwan and shahfiq. hehe.
really fed up with surizan he is the goal keeper and he couldn't stay put. when he get the ball, he ran with it trying to shoot, hehe. and either ken or i take his place.

and about 15min of the game i was really tired so i just stay put on the other group goalie. and this time, surizan pass the ball to me and i just shoot to the side and i can't believe my eyes that i goal!!.. haha.. i like so happy..

and ira shoot and goal to our goalie. so 1-1.
and about the end of the game. i not quite sure but i think feerdaus want to be a goalkeeper.
so he sat down infront the goalie, his body cover the goalie. he was talking to ira and don't concentrate on the game, and one of my team member shoot the ball, and the ball just came in passing his side. it was a goal. it was so funny. and the reason he said is he is too thin. haizz. -_-.

the funny part during the game is, when my team member joshua were sitting at our opponent goalie. and i was like shouted at him
me:why are u doing at there?
he said: i goalkeeper.
me:goalkeeper?
me: oi!! u in our group lah. what u doing there?
joshua: oh yea.(with his cute innocent, blur face) we all started to laugh.

so we won 2-1.

and yea. I PASS MY PIC PHASE TEST!!
this test ashari and i have no confident. so we just do it.
we are partner..
we pass because ashari doesn't listen to me. he do what he know.. haha..
the previous phase test, we past because of me.
this phase test we pass because of ashari.. hehe..

so i will not post about my life until the month of june. because my exams started on 2nd june and 4th june. and this month i have alot of test to pass. so do wish me luck okay.hehe. and i study every day 2 to 3hours. tap me on the back. hehe.
okay. so thats all.

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so saturday, happy birthday to lia. had so much fun. i love the open present time. so here we are taking picture with Lia's veil.



So here the picture. taken by nabilla. but the bday girl we didn't took pic of her.

so today, have pic lesson. very hard lah want to stabilize the idiotic machine.. going up, gpuing down.. how to stabilize.. haiyo..
so very boring lah.. just took random picture.. sit there looking at ppl doing work..



and yea, why theacher always wants to win.. nk menang aje.. nk cakap dieorg salah pun susah.. haiyo..

so after school, so penat and boring lah.. so i baring on my sister bed and took picture with aqil.. that boy just know how to take picture.. hehe..

so here aqil eating skittle sour candy.. this is so true and so cute.. hehe..

next story.

When Khairul's mad teachings of Physics to little sister actually paid off. Despite the

'You have to think about what you don't know if not how would you know what you don't know and so you can't think about what you don't know so you don't think about what you know so how can you know anything?'

and the

'So what is it that you don't know? - Umm, everything la, teacher - What do you mean everything? Which question do you not know how to do? - Umm, everything ah. - Hah? What is this? Which topic are you not sure of? - Umm, how many topics are there, ah teacher? - What? You don't know how many topics there are? The exam is tomorrow!'

and the

her: What is resultant force?
him: The combination of two forces together.
her: What does that mean?
him: For example when I push you like this *pushes her to the side* and somebody else pushes you like this *pushes her from the back* you will go to *pushes her to an angle*
her: -_- Ow. Okay. So how do you get the resultant force?
him: Calculate ah.
her: -_-

Oh goodness gracious. That boy can be absolutely hilarious when he wants to be. But he's a good brother, and I'm proud of the lot of them!
( i really love it) i grab this story from my kak suhaylah blog.. really love the teaching.. crack me up..

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this post will be very long.. so u guys out there want to read make sure u are not busy.. hehe.
so Friday is back..
and examination is getting nearer and nearer.. and so is phase test..
and Ashari said if he fail this course he gonna change course for sure. i really hate it.. and i know if he does, we sure rarely meet.. i do hate it.

i don't know how is my feeling right now.. I'm kinda blue.. very down lately.. i just don't know how to cheer myself up.. even at class, i just want to laugh to be happy.. but i just give a fake smile.. what happening? i feel like there something missing.. am i under stress, or depression? this is not me..
school is getting better.. except for lesson Engineering Science. i really hate that fucking teacher, do not know how to teach. my test result is very bad.. Chemistry is okey, Ms Eileen is alright when you know her better. PIC, still blurrr.. FFPS, don't want to talk about it.. Classmate, getting less pupils in the class.. some debar, some skip school and some just want to quit i guess.
i just hope my 4 girlfriends remain with me. please don't talk them away from me.. Zulyannis, Amanina, Fify, Hasyira and Nazih always make me laugh with their blurness, jokes.

any idea for making myself come back? make me laugh?

i miss my 4t1 girls. when i read back the days, after school we went to macdonald, just going in there make us crazy. laugh with no reasons. now i'm alone. just have ashari with me. i really badly miss them, i want to meet them.. girls out.. but each one has their own business.. oh well.. i have to move on. think about my future now.. just sit inside my home and watch television i guess. eat candy will always make me smile. hehe.

STOP TALKING BOUT MYSELF.
MOVE ON..
So taday, had FFPS lesson.
had practical, next week have phase test so let the picture do the talking yea.

ashari is doing it.

Fify is practicing while Nazih teaches her.




so this is what happen when class is getting bored, above, Ridzuan drew it.

So yesterday went out with Ashari family..
Super shy lah.. i go for the sake of my sayang, i know if i go he will very happy. otherwise. just see his smile just paid off. i know he love me, insyallah.

Singapore Flyer. we didn't take the ride.. just visiting.

this is what happen if Ashari finished his food.

So Wednesday.
after school went to tampines mall..




what happen when teen started to play child toys??. can't stop!

So Monday.
Pic lesson.

cool huh? on the left is the plant(machine) that the control man used.
on the right it a camera outside showing what the field man is doing..
while doing this, ashari and i were partner and i was the field man and he is the control man,
i don't know that the camera exist, and like arie was inside the room and that was impossible that he can see me from inside, while i was outside doing what was told by him. and every move i did, he knew what it, and i was blur. how does he knows? so went inside the room i saw this live camera.. hehe..
communicate by walkey-talkey.



this is what happen when u are studying. so buruk.. deep in concentrations.. haha..
i loves that pencil.. hehe..



gotten our safety boots, which i called it, kasut batu..
had to wear it every practical lesson.. ohh shit..

and not forgetting my pet.
Caiiou(kayu).
i love caiiou.

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